Is it perhaps a general fact that every single guy on the planet does not love a girl, but just uses her to get laid?
I really thought I had finally found someone, someone who loved me for who I am. Someone who would want to be with me. Who wouldn't even think about hurting me. Physically nor mentally.
Why do I keep believing in dreams, hope?
He never really loved me...he used me, and I let him. I didn't stop him. The first time, okay, I didn't see it coming. But I should've known better yesterday.
In stead of now feeling even more miserable. And I don't even know if I'll be able to walk away of him. Who knows this'll happen a third time. If only Jake were here. I know with him by my side, I would be able to go away of him. I love Jake. Why does he have to live so far?
Why do I keep believing in love? Or the guy doesn't love me, he just uses me, or he may love me as well, but lives too far away...I want to be with you, Jake. With you. No one else. I just want to get out of here. Take a break. Run away from reality. From him. I don't want my heart to be even more broken. If that's possible.
I didn't cry when I was at my friend's house. SHe knows everything. I didn't cry. Yet now I'm sitting here, nearly crying. Trying not to.
I want to run away from this place. Get out of here. I wish I could go to Jake. I wish he could hold me in my arms, I wish it'd be so easy...I wish it'd be possible...

Tagged by *Death-Metal-Anarchy , was reallyyy bored so yea XD

001. Real name → Sandrina
002. Nickname → Sany, San, Sandrijntje
003. Status → Single
004. Zodiac sign → Libra
005. Male or female → Female
006. Elementary → Nope
007. Middle School → idk, we call it 'middelbaar' so yeap? XD
008. High School → If I lived in America or something yea XD
009. Smart → Ohh yes I am!
010. Hair color → Blonde, with red atm.
011. Long or short → Something in between...
012. Loud or Quiet → Quiet with strangers, loud with friends
013. Sweats or Jeans → Jeans
014. Phone or Camera → Camera!
015. Health freak → Yeapyeap. I can see all my ribs atm
016. Drink or Smoke? → Drink once in a while, but not much. I like liquor, like baileys XD
017. Do you have a crush on someone? → Kinda yea, like, even like 2 guys >.<
018. Eat or Drink → Drink XD
019. Piercings → Gonna get some when Im 17 or 18.
020. Tattoos → Gonna get them when I'm out of the house, cuz if I do it bfor, they gunna throw me out XD

FIRSTS
023. First piercing → None yet.
024. First best friend → Karen, she bullied me afterwards...
025. First award → Uhhhmm....never really got like an award..
026. First crush → Uhhh....Jochem I think! That was like reallyyy a crush XD
027. First pet → Fish! We still got fish
028. First big vacation → Denmark probably, we went there every year.
030. First big birthday → No idea, every birthday has been awesome, except for my 15th birthday..
049. Eating → Nothing
050. Drinking → Water
052. I'm about to → Fall asleep of boredom?
053. Listening to → Nuttin yet, gonna put up As blood runs black
055. Waiting for → him to come online, him to tellme how he feels, him..., waiting for him. Hey, this could make a good poem!

YOUR FUTURE:
058. Want kids? → Yea, a girl and a boy XD
059. Want to get married? → Yea
060. Careers in mind → Something in a lab, like with chemistry, ohysics, biology..something with science

WHICH IS BETTER WITH GIRL/BOY?
068. Lips or eyes → Eyes, his are gorgeousss
070. Shorter or taller? → Taller!
072. Romantic or spontaneous → A little of both
073. Nice stomach or nice arms → Stomach, sixpack suckss
074. Sensitive or loud → Sensitive
075. Hook-up or relationship → Relationship, don't want just a flirt.
077. Trouble maker or hesitant→ Hesitant and trouble maker both are good to me XD

HAVE YOU EVER:
080. Lost glasses/contacts → Not really..
081. Ran away from home → Yeap
084. Broken someones heart → More than once
087. Cried when someone died → Yeap.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself → Starting to lately!
090. Miracles → No.
091. Love at first sight → No.
092. Heaven → No.
093. Santa clause → No.
094. Sex on the first date → Sure, why not?
095. Kiss on the first date → Yea sure.
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now → Yeap..
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → God, not really no...
099. Do you believe in God → Not sure, don't think he exists..
100. Post as 100 truths and tag → I can't answer to this! XD

Now you know some more about me! XD

Oayy, so remmeber I uploaded the dutch poem 'alle pijn voorbij'? Well, it's got likee 22 views, while if I remember correctly, about no one I know here talks dutch XD
I showed it to 2 friends who talk dutch, ut seriously, 22 views? and the weirdrest part, a download? well yeah, that just sounds weird to me, yano? XD

Anddd for something completeeeely different:
ITS MY BIRTHDAY TOMORROW! I'LL FINALLY BE 16

I was thinking of making a featurejournal and now had a like featureswitchthinggie, so yea, that's convenient

-------------
The features
-------------

I absolutely love his landscapemanipulations. Some of his best work:

One of my favs of him. The colours on this one are amazing, and the bright sun makes it complete.
[link]

Another beautiful photomanip, with a gorgeous sky.
[link]

The great thing about this manipulation is the clouds. It gives more orange to the picture
[link]


I've discovered him yesterday, and already faved half his gallery! =0

It's a very clever içdea, and it looks absolutely amazing.
[link]

A damsel looks much better in the morning than I do!
[link]

An absolutely gorgeous wasp
[link]


His impossible animals are hilarious!

Funny, furry and huggable!
[link]

I desperately want one of these!
[link]

The proof that squirrels can fly! XD
[link]


If you want a feature too, just tell me, but I only feature people who are good imo, orr if you give me one too haha.