Yano, I'm seriously in the mood to just get a fucking gun and shoot the entire world. God damnit, what is it with fucking guys - and girls - that everyone is fucking using me all the fucking time!
I am so fucking sick of it. Sorry guys, but I ain't no fucking object you use for sexual shit. I ain't here for cybersex, nude pics and sex, alright! I am a fucking human being! Unlike you douchebags.
Alright, the summary: Justin Dionela: just pretended to be friends for fucking nude pics. Typical. He doesn't even know who I am anymore, god damnit.
Hmmh...Josh: Yea, girllover, player, one time cybersex and let's sdtart ignoring. Cuz yea, I'm a fucking boring cunt girl.
How about Jake? I haven't heard of him in fucking ages! Like we broke up, one more time talking and goodbye, see you never.
Then there's that Matt dickhead. I was glad i got rid of him 2 years ago, the sexaddict, and now he suddenly showed up again. In stead of fuckin leaving me alone.
ANd the list goes on and on, and then there's the girls, my friends, who're just friends with me cuz otherwise they do'nt have anyone! Andd Pieter last year, using me for homework and sex. Never even fucking liked me. Orr Sare, punching me all the time tryin to get my attention. She did when I kicked her obv.
You know what, I'm just through with it. WHat the fuck is this for a fucking life?! Everyone fucking uses me and I am just fuc,king SICK of it! Just..ugh, I give up.
I'm really afraid of losing it again...I just can't fucking take it. Like, yea, I changed, I'm not depressed, but why can't people just....just be people, just not use me all the time...I just can't take it.
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Mood:
Miserable
i know yr feelings, and i think you are seeing these things more clearly about
the state ov the world and how government and corporations keep relations...
it's a mad world for such a lovely gal to save, yet i have faith...
it's a dirty job for sure, yet she'll make it all look pretty
there are so many songs written about this kind ov thing, yet there needs to be
more, for the message isn't hitting home... let's go...
i as the others above me (and soon to be below) believe in you, and want to see
you as you expand and grow...
my communiqué' has been lax i know, yet every time i see a gallardo i think mmm
(in toy form even they are everywhere) this colorless link is for you: [link]
i bet driving it would release allot ov adrenalin \>.</
i hope you find a happy medium where you can be free ov such frustration...
you being miserable makes me Y_Y feel better please :hug
wats the saying... dust your hands of those people...or something like that...im not sure if its dust but anyway, theyr not worth your time.
also, take these experiences and learn from them, im not saying be suspicious of everyone you meet, but from time to time theres gonna be a dickhead appear in your life. and when that happens and you find out that person is a dickhead then be happy that you found out fullstop before something potentially seriously bad couldve happened or when you feel you trust them and when you need them they ditch you...or something...i cant construct the sentences right Dx and english is my FIRST language. like, i have a friend that got dumped a few months back by her bf that she loved dearly, basically his excuse was that when he finishes uni - which is 2-3 years from now - he plans to move away, so it was better to hurt her now than hurt her after all the added stuff and junk that couldve happened during the next 2-3 years if they stayed together.....
but yeah, knowing who is a dickhead is always a good thing, learning who is a dickhead is another good thing. but while you dont know theyr a dickhead, why not try and enjoy your time with those dickheads that havent appeared to be a dickhead yet? did i mention the word "dickhead"?
so yeah, i dunno if any of that made sense, but like, just try and enjoy everything and forget about the bad stuff. bad stuff is bad << quote of the century
Unfortunately a guys love is extremly fickle. Alot of guys cant stick to just one girl, there is another group who can stick with a single girl but some just cant. If a relationship is based mainly on sex then its pointless, its not a proper relationship.
You will find people who dont use you, just pay close attention to how people act. Human nature is easy to read so you can figure out what a person is like just from a glance. (personal experience)
It will only get better if you want it to and try.
Sorry that i cant be much help at all. Ii wish i could help more.