Lately, I really have been feeling bad. Every day, I don't feel like eating, sleeping, talking, doing anything but listening and making music. My poems are shit, I look like shit, I feel like shit, ppl have always seen me as shit..Life's just shit.
If it makes you happier, I haven't cutted this week. Can't bring myself up to it, I know it won't make me feel better like it used to. Nothing makes me feel better.
I've got this feeling sinde me that I love someone, but I don't know who. It'll probably be the wrong guy anyways.
And there's the guy who has feelings for me. AT the moiment, I've understood that I don't love him.
I should be happy the exams have ended, but I'm not.
It's so fcking cold, every single fcking day. I hate this.
I just....I need someone who's there for me. Not online, but in my actual life. I don't know how much longer I can take this. I just feel like my life is breaking down, slowly and painfully. I just want to think positive and feel happy gain, like I used to...4 years ago.
This ain't right, I'm only 15 and my life isn't that bad.
Listening to: Bring Me The Horizon - The Sadness Will Never End
Playing: The deathgame