YES, my life is FUCKED UP! Gahhhhhh, I am fcking sick of feeling like this! I am in fcking love with Jamie, but fuck it, I can't get that fcking cunt Jake outta my head! Everytime my friend Max talks about him, or when I see him come online @ msn, my mood goes from happy to incredibly depressed! I hate this! I don't fcking want this, I just want to...GAHHHHHHHHH.
I have been so aggressive lately, I think it's cause of these moodswigs, though my aggressiveness has been here for a few months. I'm just so sick of it, I don't want to be aggressive. But well...I just don't know what to do..and no one can help me. Jamie can't, cause well, if he finds out I may still have feelings for Jake...Jake can't help me, cause..well, he caused this! Max can't help me, cause he's friends with Jake. No one can help me. Yet I don't know how to figure this out on my own...I'm fucked.
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Mood:
Hostile
I know your pain, honey...
I hope it will get better soon...
maybe you should tell him how you feel?
subtile..
And well, I don't know if I'm in love with Jake..and if I am, I do'nt want to be, cause I know I am in love with Jamie and I don't want to lose what we have..
maar neit te veel ook nie...
anders zou't uit de hand kunnen lopen,
en ik snap dat je ni kwyt wil wat je met Jamie hebt, en daar eb je gelyk in!
maar ik denk dat jamie jou ook wel leuk vindt?
En jah, Jamie vindt mij ook leuk.
wel da's toch goed ^^,
zie wel dat er geluk komt ^^
And as for the Jamie/Jake thing, if Jake is really the one you love, you might want think about your relationship w/ Jamie some more...
And I thought about my relationship with Jamie a lot, but..it's the only thing I'm sure about right now. My love for him is the only thing I'm aware of, the only emotion I understand right now..