I know I haven't posted anything for a while, and I'm sorry for that. This is the first time in my life it's getting hard to write poems. I've got plenty of thoughts, yet can't organise them. I used to feel like this a few years ago, I act happy around my friends, because well....I feel that if I don't talk and smile and act funny, they will get silent, say nothing and...well, you get the picture.
Back at home, or during the lessons, I crash. I start screaming, crying, cutting. I get a huge headache, my thoughts are all messed up...It feels as if there's someone else controlling my life. What the fuck is wrong with me?! I feel like I can break any moment from now, that I might kill myself or someone else. I don't know what's wrong with me. I do know that this isn't normal. I'm shivering, I just cutted myself, I feel like throwing up, I don't want to do anything at all.....What the hell is happening to me?!
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Mood:
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Listening to: Bring Me The Horizon - The Sadness Will Never End
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Reading: Nothing.
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Watching: Nothing.
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Playing: Nothing.
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Eating: Nothing.
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Drinking: Nothing.
I'm Kris, don't hesitate to message me. I hope you feel better and I hope you realize you are not alone.
Well, thanks for the comm. I'm glad to know I'm not alone.
No problem for the comment